How do You Fill a God Sized Hole?

At the end I was a twisted man/child, with child like emotions, I had been molested years previous, and alcohol and drugs were my only solution, my perception of mankind was so warped,

but I kept coming to and it was painful.

There are probably more reasons that faith based or spiritual groups are leading the way, with small and large groups that meet regularly. As i sit here today I can not think of any paid psychological groups (that are not part of penal requirements i.e. driving schools etc.) that meet in nearly every city like CR and 12 step groups and millions of lives are being affected as the decades pass.

Certainly important enough to take a little deeper look as to why they work when other therapies remain tools, not solutions, like faith and spiritual based programs.

I will share my humble opinion and please consider expanding or debating

#1 Reason why – Altruistic Movements

I had few rules towards the end of my drinking/drugging, (I was a very sick/twisted man child), one was If I was paying you for help, please do not say that you really care, as wrong as i may be, that was my experience and my rule. Because money is involved its a business agreement.

Today I do understand many people do care…. As my perception of mankind changes.

Many seek help because they have different challenges in their lives, and I certainly had an issue with trust. By the time I was becoming a young man I had already been molested tried several different drugs and blacked out on a regular basis when i drank. My family or father bought me the best attorneys and doctors and therapist that money could buy. It was shocking to me years later, though vital, that I learned that the people that were helping me at the end when I had absolutely nothing, were people that were not getting paid at all. They said it helped them and they were just being of service…..

This really made a impression on me, because if I was wrong about these members of mankind, perhaps I was wrong about other areas in my life.

Maybe I was wrong about a lot of things and I needed to change….

#2 Reason why:
Actions Change My Thinking – Not Changing My Thinking to Change My Actions

My command center (My Brain) is where I received all my information from up until the point I realized that where I was getting my information (Was the Problem) (Broke and Homeless again) my parents and everyone one around me would say things like, Show us you are sorry, believe it or not I meant every word I said…. when I said I would change.

Im a severe alcoholic/addict and my brain is where the challenges originate. I lie to myself, the 12 steps are designed action steps to help a person like me have a psychic change.

By taking the actions my thinking changes.

Then I’m in the after care of a life time.

The actions I take fill the God sized hole.

I really do care and love you guys and gals, I would like to see others comment and expand or even debate what I wrote today. There are worse things to argue about lol